GAME ON!!!

In a suprise turn of events, I got a call today from the Bariatric clinic, and they have approved my Gastric Bypass surgery!!!! I'd completely given up on the idea of being able to get the surgery at this point, but checked my voice mail today to hear a message from the surgeon's administrator, telling me that my insurance has sent them an approval! Tomorrow I will be talking with the scheduler to set a date for surgery, and I'll be set!

So it is game on, and I am ECSTATIC to say the least!

All I can say is the approval process has been a rediculous roller coaster ride. I believe it has finally come to a stop, and I can soon proceed with actually living my life! Over the last couple weeks, since it started looking as if I would not be approved for the surgery, I have become increasingly depressed. I tried to find a silver lining to the situation, and embrace the fact that I would now again have to lose the weight on my own without the help of surgery. But looking towards the future, no matter how much I tried to "Psych" myself up, all I could see was the same failure with doing it on my own that I'd seen a million times before.

I'd built up a lot of hope for the future since I decided to get the surgery, about how things were going to be when I was no longer limited by being morbidly obese, and I have to be honest, as much as I tried to keep that "hope for the future" alive and kicking when I thought I would no longer be able to get the surgery, that hope was being trampled on by all the same problems I have always had with diet and exercise. Every time I have tried to exercise, I have hurt myself. Every time I have tried to follow a strict diet, I succumb to temptation. And in the end I'm back where I started.

I'll be honest, when I heard that message today, I almost cried with happiness. As the title of my website implies, this surgery is going to give me a new lease on life, and I intend to make the most of it!