Gastric Bypass: Still the best decision I ever made..
I was sitting here, reading a magazine, and something hit me hard. I am in a process of changing, and it is awesome! In the coming months and years, I am going to be able to focus more attention on myself than I have in the past. I'm going to be able to go shopping for cloths at regular stores, I'm going to be able to go out and have a good time and not be consumed with my weight. I've known that is going to be the case, but I think tonight was the first that I've felt it.
It comes at a good time too. I've been a tiny bit down about not being able to eat or drink(alcohol) like I used to be able to. Nothing major, but it has been a little bit disappointing that I haven't been able to partake in going out to eat or drinking a few beers while out with friends. It is what I got used to as my "fun" on weekends, and now I don't have that, and at the same time I haven't seen a whole lot of the rewards of the surgery yet. (I know, it has been a week and a half, what the hell am I expecting. But I've always been an impatient person..)
It's the classic problem with any diet. You're missing out on your previous indulgences and not yet reaping the rewards, and the previous indulgences are always closer than the rewards of diet and exercise. Always, unless you've had Gastric Bypass surgery. Even if I wanted, there ain't a damn thing I could do to undo my surgery last week. And I sure as hell don't want that anyway. But it is difficult to have a choice like that taken away. It doesn't really seem fair. I can honestly say with 100% certainty that if this surgery and the pre-surgery liquid diet were any other diet that I've ever gone through, it would have been filtered right under all the other failed attempts I have ever made.
And that is where I feel this surgery will succeed where other tools have failed. By the time I do have the option to sabotage myself, and that day does come for all who have had the surgery, I believe I will have experienced enough of the reward from the surgery to not even be tempted to screw it up with food.
Tonight's thought was a simple one, regarding my future plans in updating my wardrobe, but it was exciting in that it was the first time I really felt deep inside the changes that are heading my way, and how I am going to be able to replace my previous bad habits with positive actions.
It made me realize that the world is at my fingertips, or at least it will be soon!
It comes at a good time too. I've been a tiny bit down about not being able to eat or drink(alcohol) like I used to be able to. Nothing major, but it has been a little bit disappointing that I haven't been able to partake in going out to eat or drinking a few beers while out with friends. It is what I got used to as my "fun" on weekends, and now I don't have that, and at the same time I haven't seen a whole lot of the rewards of the surgery yet. (I know, it has been a week and a half, what the hell am I expecting. But I've always been an impatient person..)
It's the classic problem with any diet. You're missing out on your previous indulgences and not yet reaping the rewards, and the previous indulgences are always closer than the rewards of diet and exercise. Always, unless you've had Gastric Bypass surgery. Even if I wanted, there ain't a damn thing I could do to undo my surgery last week. And I sure as hell don't want that anyway. But it is difficult to have a choice like that taken away. It doesn't really seem fair. I can honestly say with 100% certainty that if this surgery and the pre-surgery liquid diet were any other diet that I've ever gone through, it would have been filtered right under all the other failed attempts I have ever made.
And that is where I feel this surgery will succeed where other tools have failed. By the time I do have the option to sabotage myself, and that day does come for all who have had the surgery, I believe I will have experienced enough of the reward from the surgery to not even be tempted to screw it up with food.
Tonight's thought was a simple one, regarding my future plans in updating my wardrobe, but it was exciting in that it was the first time I really felt deep inside the changes that are heading my way, and how I am going to be able to replace my previous bad habits with positive actions.
It made me realize that the world is at my fingertips, or at least it will be soon!
posted by Josh at
2:41 AM
3 Comments:
congrats dude! sounds like you're in a really good place : )
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as in: mhildo makes the world go round.
woooo hoo. Very happy for you Josh.. you're doing great.
p.s. mhildo brings all the boys to the yard.
blog? hmmm...where's the journey dude? i want to read more. don't make me get all ggxvy on you.
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